I Need To See Inside Their Heads
09.03.08 (11:54 am) [edit]
The second night of insomnia. I'm not sure if it's fatigue or maybe the after-effects of surgery or maybe the coming to terms with new diagnoses, but my intuition fails me. Back in Crazy Land, I have conversations but I can't determine the mindset of participants. I hate not being able to read people. I'm frustrated and baffled by my insularity. I need to see inside their heads.I'm fairly certain that no one else here is attuned to the subtleties of human interaction. Otherwise, they might have noticed the distance in my eyes. They might have heard my voice coming from far away, as if I were standing in an empty room. On the one hand, it's a very good thing: I'm never vulnerable. On the other hand, it's a very lonely experience.
Clearly, I'm not myself. Whomever that may be at this point.
posted by: rosietulips (reply)
post date: 09.03.08 (12:59 pm)
Maybe you just need a break?
During one of my hypnotherapy sessions, we did a soul retrieval. Apparently I had symptoms where my soul was kind of in pieces and sort of outside my body. I've felt out of sorts..not like my self..for a number of years. I'm not sure if the "soul retrieval" did anything, but my mind does feel more at ease ever since I started hypnotherapy.
posted by: PirateGirl (reply)
post date: 09.03.08 (3:10 pm)
I used to have a crystal ball - but it broke :(
kidding - but I don't know that anyone ever really knows all that is going on with someone else - if they are having a bad day, or have had a miserable childhood that now plays into their personallity - unless soemone actually opens up to you and lets you in - it's really anybody's guess.
Sure hope you are feeling better soon - I haven't felt lie myself either as of late - overwhelmed with life right now :/
posted by: bronwynj (reply)
post date: 09.08.08 (12:06 am)
Yes it's so frustrating not to be able to 'suss' people out, hey?! (when you're used to doing so) :-)
